Leap of Faith


                                                                                            Intentionally starting over

In June of 2011, my life changed forever, when my parents died eighteen days apart and left me, their only child, to manage what remained of their lives, our family, and their legacy.

I grew up in California. My mother was born in Sweden. While she moved to America to continue her adventurous life at the age of twenty, her family stayed there. I was fortunate to have adventurous parents, who loved to travel. So although I grew up in California, I have visited Europe many times and traveled throughout the States. I love learning about people and what motivates them to live the lives they do. It is why I became a therapist, that and trying to understand my family dynamic.

After my parents passed away, I spent the rest of 2011 trying to get a handle on the aftermath. In the beginning of 2012, I considered myself very fortunate in the sense that I had the opportunity to change my life completely. I could do something different, go back to what I was doing before my parents became seriously ill or something in between. If I did something completely different, what would it be? I had always wanted to be a veterinarian so maybe I’ll considerate it. While I was internally debating this idea, I needed to renew my EAGALA certification. I went to a part two training in northern California and worked on the ideas of what to do with my life. I held on to these ideas while I worked through the training. The horses checked in with me throughout the training by standing next to me, licking my hand, or rubbing next to me. If nothing else I found this to be reassuring but it also reminded me how amazing horses are for intuiting what we need from them.

But, how do I pass up the opportunity to try for something I have always wanted… I don’t. I applied to vet school, I went back to school for a semester taking fun classes like biochemistry and generally wondering what on earth possessed me to torture myself in this manner! There are less than 100 veterinarian schools in the world. The average class size is 120. With over a 1000 applicants for each class every year it’s very difficult to get into vet school. I got in!

And then I decided not to go.

I realized that as amazing as it was to have accomplished this feat, I decided I didn’t want to give up being a therapist. I didn’t want to spread myself to thin trying to do everything I thought I wanted to do. SO I decided that it was okay to have this great accomplishment under my belt and go back to being “just” a therapist. However, it was time for a a change. It was time to move.

I have been a Marriage and Family Therapist for ten years. I have spent most of my career working and managing residential treatment centers. Due to my background, I am familiar with coming into a new environment, assessing strengths, weaknesses, and possible growth opportunities. I did my research and went out to introduce myself in my new home town of Coeur d’Alene, Idaho.

The first place I went to was a stables that was a private ranch, a foundation for at risk youth, and a boarding facility. I met one of the owner’s who was there cleaning a stall. (I liked the fact that she was willing to do some dirty work.) Once we started talking, Diane became increasingly excited stating that the foundation has been looking for a person with just my background and she can’t believe I just walked in to say hello.

I started working for the foundation two weeks later as a contracted employee. A week after that I was invited to a meeting which was about a position that IYR (Idaho Youth Ranch) and  Mica Foundation (MF) had been working to create since the Fall of 2011. Towards the middle of the meeting, I asked to see a job description since the meeting had picked up from previous conversations that I was not involved in, I felt behind. Upon a very brief review of the description I realized why I was at the meeting. The job description appeared to be written for me off my CV. It was written in the fall of 2012. I asked Diane when did the foundation and IYR first come up with the shared position that seemed built for me and she said it was apart of the first discussions as early as the Fall of 2011. I was a bit dumbstruck by the idea that while I was preparing to have estate sales at my family home, these people were meeting to discuss a significant part of my future.

I am building the company of my dreams, in a beautiful area, with amazing support.

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